So I just left Jessica's because she had work. It's 6:30am and my only class is not until 2:30, so who knows why I'm up. It's the second week of school and I already have hours of homework each night..loving college haha.
I have been doing a lot of thinking about regret myself lately. One of my buddies, Tommy, is going through a sort of break up but is deciding whether he wants to continue with his 2 year relationship or maybe call it quits to see what else is out there. I told him he needs to think about what would make him happiest, what he thinks he would regret more, missing out on some aspects of college life, or losing a great girl who is always there for him. Shitty choice to make.
I love the old age mind frame Josh gave us. Always try to think that way. I really think regret is somewhat silly. Don't get me wrong there's quite a few skeletons in this closet I wouldn't be proud to share, or even some things I wished had just gone differently, but ultimately I try my hardest to make the best of the circumstances I am put in. Ya know I think regret has a lot to do with integrity. A person should do, or not do, something based on the idea that it could change their view of themselves. You really are the only person that most decisions would matter to. If you get away with cheating on a test and no one knows but you, that’s great! Unless you feel guilty, that shows integrity. Shows you want to do the right thing even though you got away with it. Shows you what kind of person you are. With the old age thinking you may say, “shit, do I really want to be the kid who gets by cheating off the guy next to me, or the guy who strives to do his best.” (let’s be honest for a second, cheating on a test is a small and somewhat stupid example because, get real, who hasn’t cheated on a test. Hopefully something like that really isn’t the reason you look back and say damn I was a crappy person, unless it was like the LSAT or something) These decisions should matter to you, and no one else.
Evaluate the choices that are given to you. Think about what would make you happiest and what would, at the end of the day, be in your best interest. Here is why regret may seem frivolous, yes you must live with the choice either way, but only you have the opportunity to make the best of it or even change your circumstance if at any point you are not happy. Go ahead, fuck up, it’s the best part of life. I only suggest you reevaluate yourself when you do, therefore you can make better decisions in the future. So when I think about myself as an elder, thinking about myself as a youngster (huh?) I want to be proud of the person I was and the life that I lived. I want to learn from every damn experience I have on this planet, and take that knowledge to better my being. The scariest thing I can think of these days is disappointing myself. I never want to let myself down.
What do you regret?
Can regret be turned into motivation?
What are you afraid to regret?
Why aren't you fixing it?